Sunday, October 29, 2006
What I think now...
Since I came to the US, it has passed about 3 months. Everything has been going well and I'm enjoying my life. Recently I got to think about myself. When I was in Japan, I didn't have a plenty of time to think about myself. Besides I didn't want to think about myself. From I came here, I noticed some things. I really didn't like talking with people in Japan. I tried to avoide from talking with people. When I talk with classmates or co-workers in the group, I always feel like uncomfortable. I become more nervous when trying to speak about myself. I don't know why but I think I'm always comparing with other people. I persuaded myself I don't have an ability to talk with people.
And, I think I have two characters when I speak in Japanese and English. Before coming to the US, I knew that I became more active and felt comfortable to talk in English. Maybe I love speaking in English and can enjoy talking in English. Since I came here, I felt like much more. When I talk with some Japanese, I stop talking and switch to listen, however I can talk actively in English with Amricans. In my mind, there are two persons. That's very interesting for me to notice two myself. It's comfortable for me to speak in English.
But these days, I hesitant to speak English. I'm a little bit afraid of talking with Americans coz my English is poor and it's very hard to communicate with them. And, then I sometimes worry about how I look like... I'm not western, I'm Asian... I know it's a bad idea, but I sometimes feel like if I were Western.
I think this is a good chance for me to change myself. I talked these things to my Japanese friend and she said I should be like when I'm talking in English in Japan. I wanna be, I hope so. But I don't know I'm gonna be a different myself in Japan.
And, I think I have two characters when I speak in Japanese and English. Before coming to the US, I knew that I became more active and felt comfortable to talk in English. Maybe I love speaking in English and can enjoy talking in English. Since I came here, I felt like much more. When I talk with some Japanese, I stop talking and switch to listen, however I can talk actively in English with Amricans. In my mind, there are two persons. That's very interesting for me to notice two myself. It's comfortable for me to speak in English.
But these days, I hesitant to speak English. I'm a little bit afraid of talking with Americans coz my English is poor and it's very hard to communicate with them. And, then I sometimes worry about how I look like... I'm not western, I'm Asian... I know it's a bad idea, but I sometimes feel like if I were Western.
I think this is a good chance for me to change myself. I talked these things to my Japanese friend and she said I should be like when I'm talking in English in Japan. I wanna be, I hope so. But I don't know I'm gonna be a different myself in Japan.
# posted by erika : 9:05 PM
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I think this is called rediscovering yourself. Find out what you really want and slowly change what you don't like.
You should just talk to people and not worry if you are asian or if your english is not good. Those who continue talking to you, despite your worries are the ones who truly wish to be your friends.
You should just be yourself, That's what i think.
Yeah, I think I'm always learning something from many people. I discovered many things. If I didn't come here, I couldn't find them absolutely!
Be myself! Thank you, Piccola. That's a good pharse ;)
You should just talk to people and not worry if you are asian or if your english is not good. Those who continue talking to you, despite your worries are the ones who truly wish to be your friends.
You should just be yourself, That's what i think.
Yeah, I think I'm always learning something from many people. I discovered many things. If I didn't come here, I couldn't find them absolutely!
Be myself! Thank you, Piccola. That's a good pharse ;)
It was great to hear from you again. I can hardly believe that 3 months have passed since you went to the States. It really sounds like you are making the most of your time over there; you're not only developing your English skills, you're also finding out new things about yourself.
I can't believe today is already Novermber 3rd!! It's amazing! Time is money... These days I feel so. Going out from your country must be a good experience for people.
I can't believe today is already Novermber 3rd!! It's amazing! Time is money... These days I feel so. Going out from your country must be a good experience for people.
Piccola is right.
Do what you think will help you to be a better person. Make the most of your stay here in the U.S. and have fun.
Do what you think will help you to be a better person. Make the most of your stay here in the U.S. and have fun.
Being away is always good for eveybody, it makes people think.
Don't worry about being Asian, it's ok. You are Asian, so what?
Don't worry about being Asian, it's ok. You are Asian, so what?
Your story kind of reminds me of my mom when she first moved to America. She was sad at first because she didn't know any other Indonesian people around but later she found out that there were many here! And now she talks more and is comfortable living here. She doesn't think about it very much anymore and likes to live here. :)
I think you'll be looking at things from a whole new perspective once you've return from your study in the States.
You should speak as much English there since you're primarily there to learn, and experience both the American lifestyle and the English language.
You should be enjoying yourself as much as you can and not worry too much! =)
You should speak as much English there since you're primarily there to learn, and experience both the American lifestyle and the English language.
You should be enjoying yourself as much as you can and not worry too much! =)
Hi!
Nice to know that you are enjoying your life to the fullest!
You are discovering tons of things everyday so I think your brain is shaking with joy!!
Well, I uploaded Hong Kong photos.
Please visit my site and look at some of them.
Nice to know that you are enjoying your life to the fullest!
You are discovering tons of things everyday so I think your brain is shaking with joy!!
Well, I uploaded Hong Kong photos.
Please visit my site and look at some of them.
Hey ;)
Nice to read you, again haha.
Well, I think, I can talk with my poor English better to people as when I try to speak in German with them. I think, its maybe, I can speak fluent German and I have to choose the right word everytime, but when I speak English, I don't know all words, so I have to use the words I know, and don't have to choose everytime like in German.
But talking with my friends in German is a lot more comfortable than in English, for me, haha.
Nice to read you, again haha.
Well, I think, I can talk with my poor English better to people as when I try to speak in German with them. I think, its maybe, I can speak fluent German and I have to choose the right word everytime, but when I speak English, I don't know all words, so I have to use the words I know, and don't have to choose everytime like in German.
But talking with my friends in German is a lot more comfortable than in English, for me, haha.
Its been a long time since i posted a comment here. Nice to know you are having fun in States.
There's nothing wrong about being Asian! There are people who hope they are borned Asian as well as people who hope they are borned as Europeans, Americans etc.
There's nothing wrong about being Asian! There are people who hope they are borned Asian as well as people who hope they are borned as Europeans, Americans etc.
How's life in boulder? I got stuck in the Denver airport in the recent blizzard.. sigh.. I'll blog about it later.. I guess it's all snow around where you live too.
Hey, I know how you feel. Last fall I spent 3 months in Tokyo for study abroad. I mostly hung around other Americans because I could communicate more fluently with them, and I could fit in more easily. Also, I felt like if I started talking to a Japanese person, they would think I'm just a stupid tourist. I probably missed out on a lot of friendships, and that shouldn't happen to you.
Don't be shy! Keep your chin up and put your best foot forward! I realize that's easier said than done, but I just don't want you to make the mistake I did.
Besides, if you're as cute as your picture, you shouldn't have too many problems making friends. ;)
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Don't be shy! Keep your chin up and put your best foot forward! I realize that's easier said than done, but I just don't want you to make the mistake I did.
Besides, if you're as cute as your picture, you shouldn't have too many problems making friends. ;)
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